Sophia the Shadow

I’m an eternal optimist with a generally good attitude. I fear for the future sometimes and don’t trust my luck, but all in all, i do my job and don’t worry about whether I “like it” or not, focus on what ai can get done, try to appreciate the little moments, and am generally in a half smiley state anytime I’m not in searing pain.  I developed this by the way from small childhood, on really bad days, surgery days or whatever, I had a little prayer that just went, “i want to get through today and back to any normal day. Not a special day or a great day, just a normal day where everything is, just, ok.” So anyway, i suppose having said that little prayer a hundred times or more now, “what i wouldn’t give for this to be just a normal day!” I am pretty focused on appreciating those normal days.  At any moment of any day someone is desperately wishing to have your boring ass day or one like it.  So all that said, the great curse of optimism and a happy set point, it that pe

Several people have asked to share this comment I made so I’m Making it a post; On vaccines; Vaccine conspiracies, like all conspiracies, are an effort on our part to grab onto something controllable. We don’t want our kids to end up with some learning disability or medical issue or autism. But by and large these things are genetic and environmental and out of our control and just *happen* no matter how much we love our kids. We see it every day; a kid struggling with autism, or suddenly getting cancer, or some mysterious illness. And it’s so unfair and scary! But we don’t see measles and rubella and pertussis every day. In fact, I’ve never known a child who got any of those my whole life! So we have a visible enemy; autism, cancer, mystery and danger And one that doesn’t even seem real; “measles” “mumphs” “pertussis.” I mean, they are just boogeymen to me. At 42, never seen any of them!  So what if i had control to stop those visible enemies that I see and am