I’m an eternal optimist with a generally good attitude. I fear for the future sometimes and don’t trust my luck, but all in all, i do my job and don’t worry about whether I “like it” or not, focus on what ai can get done, try to appreciate the little moments, and am generally in a half smiley state anytime I’m not in searing pain. 

I developed this by the way from small childhood, on really bad days, surgery days or whatever, I had a little prayer that just went, “i want to get through today and back to any normal day. Not a special day or a great day, just a normal day where everything is, just, ok.”

So anyway, i suppose having said that little prayer a hundred times or more now, “what i wouldn’t give for this to be just a normal day!” I am pretty focused on appreciating those normal days. 

At any moment of any day someone is desperately wishing to have your boring ass day or one like it. 

So all that said, the great curse of optimism and a happy set point, it that people who don’t share it, 
Drive. 
Me. 
Crazy. 

Have a bad day on your bad days! Be dramatic! Scream and gnash teeth! As well you should. 

But please just be happy you’re not standing in the rain, or the ER, or trying to staunch the flow of blood tears from a broken heart. Right?

Yeah. 

So the teenage brain does not think this way. 

But, what a wonderful job I must have done to have a kid who has no idea what it’s like to pray for a normal old crummy day!


There goes that optimism again. 

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